While I used to spend hours on end talking about my dating life with anyone who would listen, recently I’ve dodged the topic. Nothing annoys me more than people who won’t immediately answer my inappropriately personal questions.) I’ll frequently tell a harmless anecdote only to quickly recount it, paranoid it might have been a dream. Secrets often feel like a lie to me and I would rather lay it all out there than worry I’ve been misleading. A lot of that comes from my OCD and pure inability to not answer any question directly, honestly and with too much detail. Self-promotion makes me feel really icky too but you know what? You have to do it! It’s available everywhere podcasts are found including YouTube. Be the best boss you can be! Just make sure everyone is home at a reasonable hour.Īlso, please listen to GOSSIP. So here’s what I’ve learned: If you treat people with respect, it’s okay to go after what you want even if the idea might make you feel icky at first. I sat for hours listening to cuts and politely demanding they replace one single word with another take. I directed talent who are far more seasoned than me. If this thing crashes, it’s all on me.Īnd do you know what? That’s okay. I steered the ship from beginning to end. I can’t think, “Well if they had only let me do it this way” because for once I was finally allowed to do it my way. If people don’t like it, there is no one to shift the blame on. And putting it out there was fucking terrifying. It’s the first big project that’s completely my own. I had an incredible team around me from producers to writers to sound engineers but Stitcher gave me a truly remarkable amount of creative control. It’s a 12-episode comedic soap opera that I wrote, directed and star in. The best thing, by far, to come out of embracing my controlling nature is my new scripted podcast GOSSIP. And both my manager and Gaby are still talking to me. I pushed through the doubt and self-judgment and vocalized what I wanted. Where I looked like a selfish bad guy, whose ego was getting in the way of a good thing. So I had to have a lot of really uncomfortable conversations. My manager was not thrilled with this idea. When Gaby and I work together in the future I need clean delineations of who is doing what and I desperately need my own projects. I would spend hours in therapy trying to figure out why I felt all of this resentment and angry toward someone who helped launch the career I so desperately wanted.Īnd it boiled down to this…you guessed it: I love being in charge. I am too controlling and picky and I hate the feeling of someone reading over my shoulder. I am not meant to have a writing partner. It was thrilling and rewarding and it also drove me just a little bit insane. We sold a few TV shows that never got made. We had a popular YouTube channel together. Which is probably one of the best perks since I love to go to bed early.įor the first few years of my career, I was in a very public partnership with my best friend, Gaby Dunn. It also means you get to decide when everyone goes home. You’re taking all the smaller parts and fitting them together to create something whole. It just means you’re the one steering the ship. Or that you are more talented than those around you. I fucking love it.īeing in charge doesn’t mean you are always right. But you know where I really shine? When I’m in charge. At 29, I can finally do all of those things relatively well. I should know how to work well with others. Girls are supposed to shake their bossiness not lean into it. For a long time I carried this truth around like a secret shame. Her story and perspective are worth reading! #reallife #chronicillness #autoinflammatorydisease #autoinflammatoryawareness #periodicfeversyndrome #rarediseaseawareness #healthishealthįollow Joanna. So, here"s a snippet of my less than perfect day. I want to hear about your less than perfect moments, whether it’s spilling coffee on your favorite shirt or having an argument with a loved one, your obstacles are just as valid as mine. This is the furthest thing from the truth. For me, my chronic illness sometimes leads people to believe that their struggles are “not as bad” as being sick frequently. In my eyes, there is no hierarchy of importance in these struggles. Whether it’s mental illness, physical illness, or anything that portrays a less than ideal moment, it is so important for us all to remember that everyone is fighting their own battle. In the age of social media, we often only post snippets of the best versions of ourselves. As many of you know, I’ve decided to be an open book about having a chronic illness.
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